Saturday, July 9, 2011

The Terminal Disease We All Have

Here is something that everyone knows yet chooses to ignore, we've all ingested a poison, there is no antidote to that poison, and we are slowly dying as time progresses the effects of that poison were be more and more prominent, slowing us down, decreasing our ability to work, dimming down our senses, and in the end we'll all die. This poison is Life its self, its not as infinite as we all condition ourselves to believe, it comes in one serve packets, and these packets come in random sizes, so you can never know when you'll run out. There is no way to regulate the consumption to delay the inescapable ending, it'll happen, and usually it does when you least expect it. If expected most probably the quality of life is not worth living, days are spent in agony waiting for that ending that never comes. In a way it never comes on time, its either too late or too early.

Our generation is the first generation that uses social media, and the internet in general. Unlike all the generations before us, upon our death a small imprint of us lingers online, for as long as the social site can support it, a glimpse of what that person was like, his priorities, his aspirations, and the comments left by those who were his friends after his death. Writings on the wall that can easily be accessed online, enriched even. A social graph that just freezes as a point in time, with the person updating it dead, it stops at a certain point showing how that person was hours prior to his death. In a way I find this both amazing and depressing, leaving behind a legacy that's easily accessible but completely irrelevant to most of the people alive. I believe there must be some kind of grave yard for social media, to which accounts of dead people can be moved to. Personally I don't want my social graph to outlive me, its my voice and I don't want it to ring beyond my lifetime. 

I think the main reason behind me not wanting that to happen is that I think my life so far wasn't important enough to be left behind, I'd rather for it to be forgotten rather than being remembered as this infinite list of half  success (i.e. failures to reach full targets). That's not the legacy I want to leave behind, I prefer slipping to oblivion, with people vaguely recalling bits and pieces of my life, the bits and pieces they lived with me rather than the things I added to my socialgraphs, bits that would be forgotten as soon as they are told, and once my generation is gone, no one would remember me or how my life went.

All the events I live, all of my priorities, the things i care about, the things i loath, fear or love, all of these things are trivial, and will be gone as soon as I'm gone, and frankly I don't care, our religion tells us to live life as if we are living forever, after all what else can you do, panic over death, the one indisputable fact of life, try to delay it. I think the only solution is to embrace it, and accept it as a part of life, know that its coming and chose to ignore it, but keep it in the back of our mind. 

I need to do something about my socialgraph, and find a way to design a solution for my death, something that would shut down my social graphs.

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